It's been a process--mourning in ways (hopefully) hidden from Becca and finding concrete steps to help us move on. And while we've not yet arrived at that (mythical?) place of acceptance, I think we're closer.
Having something to throw myself into helped a great deal. And what better focus than someone's 4th birthday? We had a visit from Sleeping Beauty that wowed the wee princesses in attendance and certainly made the Birthday Girl's day.
There were ample decorations, cake, and presents. It might have been a bit much. But I'm okay with that. Because I want Becca to know how incredibly important and loved she is--and I certainly don't want her memory of this period in her life darkened by our attempts to grow our family.